"Right under my feet there's air made of bricks, pulls me down turns me weak for you. I find myself repeating like a broken tune and I'm forever excusing your intentions and I give in to my pretendings, which forgive you each time, without me knowing, they melt my heart to stone.
And I hear your words that I made up. You say my name like there could be an us. I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love. I'm the only one in love.
Each and every time I turn around to leave, I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed. So desperately I try to link it with my head, but instead I fall back to my knees. As you tear your way right through me, I forgive you once again. Without me knowing, You've burnt my heart to stone.
Why do you steal my hand whenever I'm standing my own ground? You build me up, then leave me dead.
Well I hear your words you made up. I say your name like there should be an us. I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love. I'm the only one in love ."
i had to post up the entire song. it's how i'm feeling right now. i'm torn in two, again, for the millionth time. as much as i want to continue, it's only hurting me more. i know that there is no obligation to me, but my feelings still need to be considered if we are both making choices and decisions. supposedly we both feel the same way about each other, but i don't seeing coming from his side. maybe the feelings really are there, but because of the fact that i'm putting myself out there, i feel like i should be getting something back as well, and i'm not. i just want someone to love me and care for me. i want someone that actually wants to be with me and spend time with me. i feel like such an idiot every time i ask and i get rejected. it shouldn't be this way. i have a lot of love to give and i know i'm a lot of fun. but if he can't see that, then i need to learn that things have to go back to the way that they were. i wish that things could keep moving forward, but if he's not ready, then there's nothing that i can do. i want him to feel the same way i do. i can't force him or pressure him. and that's the last thing that i want to do. and i would hate myself if he disappeared again because of me. that's the last thing i want. i just want to be loved.
